Wednesday 26 November 2014

How all I learn

I learn everyday. How all do I learn. I learn by many different ways.

Internet
I signed up for a newsletter that gives me tips about gardening weekly.
Reflection
Daily reflection is helpful. this blog itself was a result of a reflection and discussion.
People - Learning
Praveen Uncle took a 1hr Fitness training session and i learned about my body. I really enjoyed doing fitness exercises.
Asking Feedback
I take feedback for my blogs.
Experience
I experienced groundnut harvesting.
Visiting Places
I visited a farm and looked around and learned some stuff about gardening.
Failure
I tried making sweet corn soup but I failed and I know what mistakes I made.
Debating
I debated on 10th exam, whether  it is important or not and I got clarity on my decisions and few insights

Some of the other ways are
Doing it in different ways, 
Exploring, Let go, Reading, Books, Talking, Discussing, Teaching, Sharing, Helping, People - Listening, 
People - Asking, People - Working, 
Being with it, Practice, Visualize, Videos, Observing,Questioning,Doing,Experiments


Groundnut Harvesting

I went to a farm, I volunteered to help in the groundnut harvesting.
I worked for 5 hours, I plucked the groundnuts from the plant.
When working in the farm, I realized how much hard work farmers do.
I eat leisurely daily. For just the peanuts in my food a lot of work is done.
My hands started to hurt by the end of the work.
The work was monotonous and after a while it got difficult.
The people working around were working very hard.
It was a different experience. I enjoyed

Wednesday 12 November 2014

Self Images

I reflected on Images I have about myself and how they affect me?

What happens when I make a mistake?
I know making mistakes in fine, everyone makes them. When I make a mistake, I don't accept it. I try to justify it or blame on someone. Sometimes i even blame it on a in-animated object. I want to own up my mistakes and accept them. I am working with awareness.

What happens when I compare myself with others?
Do I consider myself beautiful?
I think this Image has formed when I compare myself with others. This Image is not helping me.

Do I think science is difficult and I don't know science?
I get frustrated easily when I am doing science experiment. I am working of making a electrical circuit. I have very limited knowledge and soon i got frustrated as my circuit was not working.

Do I think the same for maths?
I find maths difficult.

I think I am a responsible person, what happens when I am not responsible or I don't want to be responsible, do I push myself to live up to the image?
I push myself to live up to my Image of myself. Being responsible is a positive thing and so pushing myself to live up to the image is benefiting myself.

Do I have a image that I am very caring towards pets?
This is a positive image. I think at times it constrains me and pushes me to live up to the image. I think its a good thing.

Does acceptance of ability means not moving ahead?
In sports I accepted that I have low stamina and I am not good in sports. After accepting I pushed myself to run more.

Does some images make me doubt myself, make me nervous and not confident?
I doubt myself when I cook. I have a image that I don't know how to cook. When cooking I am apprehensive.

Getting up late is wrong?
When I wake up late, later than others I feel guilty and dissapointed with myself.  I feel its wrong.

How my images affect my dreams and fears?
I have a image that I am not good at interacting with others and connecting with people, therefore it affects my dreams. 

Wednesday 5 November 2014

Dig For Gold

If I was told that there is treasure buried in my backyard. I would dig for the treasure. While digging I would find mud, stone, organic matter, insects. I would also find murk, maybe a decaying animal or a decaying shoe. 

There are two ways to look at this story.

1. Every person has treasure in them. If I let the person's weakness or mistakes come in my way, distract me, make me look at the weakness instead of the strengths then i would not find the treasure. If I let the murk and decaying matter come in my way, if I don't throw it aside, I will stray away from digging for the treasure. I will not get treasure. I look at others and myself as treasure, I throw aside the the murk and look for the treasure.
( The story and thought my father told, the above is my interpretation of it)

2. If I was told I would find lots of gold in my backyard then I would focus on the gold and ignore the mud, stone, organic matter and insects I find. To me the mud is the gold. Mud supports my whole life and it is treasure. The same way If I look only for a perfect being or what I want in the other person, I will ignore all the gold that already exists in the person.

I want to dig for gold in people around me. Acknowledge the gold they possess and gain from their treasure. Learn from them. I want to throw away all the murk and decaying matter.

The murk and decaying matter decays and turns into organic matter and mud. It turns into treasure. The compost is treasure for plants and plants are treasure for me.

If I decay my weaknesses and change them, they will turn into compost, Into treasure. 
Others weaknesses can also change. I can give feedback but not let the murk come in my way of looking at the gold. Giving feedback is adding dry leaves to the compost pit but giving instructions is adding water in the compost pit (bad for compost)!

Let me dig for Gold!